I paid off my last credit card bill this month and i will be paying off the last of my medical bill, as well.

I am merely days away from complete financial freedom. I have a good job as a programmer and i’m continuing my education in order to enhance my knowledge and career worth.

Just about every external facet of my life is markedly improving. I have a bright, if not shining, future ahead of me. In a few months, the lease at my apartment will be up and my brother will be getting his own place with his adoring girlfriend. I may go to Japan to teach English. I may move to New York, just because i can. I might move to Seattle and concentrate on my writing.

But, whatever i do in this life, despite my best efforts, rest assured, i will be doing it alone.

So stop asking for my presence, when you don;t actually want it. Stop asking what i think, when you obstinately refuse to believe it. Stop asking for my opinion, when you then become annoyed when i share it. Stop asking me to do something and then complain about how i do it. Stop thinking i’m a ‘player’ because i try to take care of my appearance and drive a sports car. Stop thinking that i’m arrogant, because i don’t happen to believe in whatever delusional, fairy-tale, magical fucking reality you’ve been brain-washed into. Stop saying stupid, insipid things to me and expecting me to accept them out of politeness. Stop thinking I’m being “emo” or that I’m a “drama queen” because a few things is this world actually matter to me. Stop telling me and expecting me to act like some sort of cardboard cutout of what YOU think a man should be; i am no one’s preconceived notion, i am my own man and will live how i see fit. Stop acting shocked when i am not outraged by the same things you are and when certain things bother me that are beyond your perception or care. Stop expecting my tone to be the same as all of the other people you’ve ever known; i am not them. Stop thinking that i am as shallow as you are.

…and stop thinking that this post is about YOU.

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